The Amazing Baby

Some days I am just amazed at what a baby does. Alex has discovered his hands and feet. He balls his hands up and brings them up to his face. When he gets them right in front of his face, he stretches out his hands and startles himself. "Oh my! They did something!" He does something similar with his feet. He stares at them for a few seconds. Then, if they move, it catches him off guard. "What the??? They moved!!" I get this look that says, "Mommy, what is that? I think I'm doing it but, I'm not sure." Love it!

On Sunday, he started talking for extended periods of time to anything that was near. You hear the "Aahhh" ,"Oh", and the most beautiful sound of all, the "Coo". I love this sound. It's such a peaceful sound. It's not loud or long. Just peaceful. This is only ahead of the next most beautiful sound. The laugh. I have always loved a baby's laugh. It is one of the sweetest sounds any mother can hear. It's one of those things that makes your day worth all the crud you have to put up with during the day. I look forward to hearing what sounds he can make everyday.



Last night he rolled over twice. It was so cute. He was laying on the floor playing peak-a-boo with a blanket. Next thing I know, he's on his side looking at the tv. A minute later, he was back on his back. He did it again about 2 or 3 minutes later. He's halfway rolled over before but, this time he was all the way on his side and then back again.

I know to most of you these things seem trivial. Babies roll over all the time. The talk all the time. Eventually I won't be able to get him to stop talking or moving. Right now I don't care. He's my little boy and he's making progress to becoming a little person with so much personality. Every grin, coo, laugh, and cry shows me more an more of the little man that he is and will be. I look forward to every day with him.

Rough Morning/Few Days

Well, Baby has started waking up through the night again. He's just determined not to let his poor mommy sleep. For the past 2 nights he's waken up at least 4 times each night. I was so angry and tired this morning that I was in tears. My husband, bless his heart, didn't know why I was upset (he never hears the baby). God, for some reason, has deemed it necessary for my little angel to wake me up and make sure I don't get a good nights sleep. Maybe it's meant for me to learn to have a more patience. That's a hard lesson to learn when you're not getting much sleep.



On top of no sleep, we were trying to decide whether or not to let Alex go out of town without us. I was on the fence but, my hubby was not ready to let him go that far without us yet. We went back and forth over it for a few minutes and I finally decided to let it go and keep the baby here. I really am a little nervous about Alex going that far away without us. It's our little man. Even when he does sleep through the night, I still wake up thinking that I heard him grunt or whine, meaning the beloved passy has become dislodged and he can't get it back in his mouth. I may be alright with him going now but, I would probably end up crying my eyes out as soon as he left. I've done it before. I'll probably do it again.

I have learned that it gets easier to spend time away the more often I let go. I'm afraid that eventually I'll let go too much and my little man will think that I don't care and it doesn't matter what he does or where he goes or how long he stays gone. Is that normal???? I know that right now he can't stand to be put down for more that about 5 minutes but, will this change? Will he eventually not want Mommy to kiss the hurts and rock him to sleep. I don't know if I can deal with that. Sometimes it seems like only Mommy can make the tears go away. That really does something for my ego but nothing for my sanity. Sometimes the only thing that satisfies is to walk, walk, and walk some more. I swear I'll lose all the baby weight from walking around our living room.

Well, for now, I know that I love being a Mommy. I may seem a little crazy sometimes and yes Owell, I do go over the deep end sometimes after a baby screaming session. I may be calm around people but, when it's just me Brian, and Alex, I can be a little loopy. I believe every Mom goes through it. I'm not the only one. I can't be.

Most of us moms can keep our cool out in the open and go butt wild behind closed doors. :) Just kidding. I do know that most women are good at keeping up the calm facade (Hey Brian, I used a fancy word). Let's do each other a favor though. Don't let your kids run wild out in public. It's not polite for others to have to put up with a screaming child in a restaurant or store. I know that there are some of you out there that think it's nobody's business but, you make it everyone's business when it happens out in public. Think about it.

Ok, I think I'm done with my rant for today.

Sleep, sleep, WONDERFUL sleep

This week our little angel has started sleeping through the night. I feel like I'm slowly getting my brain to function again. I can't believe it. The first time he did it, I woke up several times just to make sure he was still alive. :) It's the most wonderful feeling to know that he's getting a full nights sleep, and so am I. I've attached a couple of recent picture. I hope you enjoy them.

New Life, New Perspective

This is new to me so bear with me. I have seen several Blog pages and decided to give it a try. Here goes.

I'm a new mommy and my son is learning how to push mommy's buttons. There are some days when he seems like a little angel and then there are the days that nothing seems to satisfy him. Tonight seems to be one of those bad nights. He will scream for a minute then stop. Screams again and stops. Anyway, even through these trying times, I have found a deeper love for my son and for my husband.

I came across a video a few weeks ago about a baby boy that only lived for 99 days. His life was cut very short but, he had very full days. He was very loved. He changed the lives of many people, including me. Just seeing this family appreciate every moment they had together changed my outlook on my family. I have enjoyed the peaceful and the chaotic moments of family life even more. I have also found a closer relationship with Jesus. I have been blessed with a loving patient husband and a beautiful baby boy. I have a nice home to stay in. I have wonderful parents and great in-laws. There are 2 beautiful nieces that I absolutely adore. My middle sister is my shoulder to cry on when I can't deal with the screaming anymore and my baby sister is my outlet for goofiness. I'm not even sure that's a word ??? I could honestly say that I could not ask for a better life than the one that I have. I am hoping to use this page to share my adventures in motherhood, marriage, and work. What a combo! If you have any stories to share or encouragement, please feel free to share. God bless!

Love to you all!